Speak Up

When I was 16 I met my husband. He was a few years older than me and had already been in serveral rehabs including one in Seattle where he stayed for a year. He was addicted to pretty much anything that made him high including meth. At 18 I foolishly decided if I couldnt beat it, join it. So I was soon addicted to meth as well. We would have periods of sobeiety but it never lasted. We always found a reason to drink or use. At 20 we got married 2 months before he went to prison for possession. In his absence I used even more. I had to move in with his mom, I couldnt keep a job, I couldnt stay out of the bars or other mens beds. I'm lucky I didnt lose my daughter. Needless to say we also lost our marriage. After 2 years of him being in prison he came home and we tried to patch things up. As usuall it was using and drinking with some soberity. There was also domestic violence. One day, after our last daughter was born I just decided I was never going to do meth again. And by the grace of God I havent.But I was still drinking and taking ALOT of pain killers. Sometimes up to 30 pills a day. I look back now and wonder how I didnt die. Nine months ago we both decided to try to get completly sober and clean. And we have done it! We go to a 12 step recovery group once a week, work the steps with our sponsers and even include our children. At 8 and 3 they dont understand all of it but they sure are proud of mommy and daddy. All I can say is by taking life one day at a time helps me! God Bless