Speak Up

I always told them I wouldn't try it. I lied. I always told them I wouldn't buy it. I couldn't get it for free anymore so did. I always broke their bubbles. Then bought my own. I always said I could say no. But always said yes. I always said I could quit when I wanted. Then wanted to and couldn't. I always said it was their addiction. I was wrong. 6 months ago I tried meth. 5 months ago I started buying my own. 4 month ago I told my mom. 3 month ago I attempted to quit. 2 months ago my mouth started to decay. 1 month ago I tried to run from it. 1 week ago it ran in to me. 1 day ago i realized.... this is my "boogie man" my "devil". I will never be fully recovered but in recovery I always will want to be. I am addicted to meth but i know I don't want to be.ONE DAY SOBER AND COUNTING!!! Proud of you all