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I was 19 when I started using meth regularly, for about 2 years. I used once and within in days I was ready to use again. I began using up to 10 times a day. My ex boyfriend said I would not get addicted. He was wrong. Within a few months I had lost all the wait possible before dying. I went down to 72 pounds. It got to the point where I couldn't even walk. My stomach blew up to the size of a balloon. It was rock hard. I went to the doctor and they told me I was dying. Somewhere in my mind the meth told me, "so what I hope you die". I continued to use. You could see every single vertibrey in my back. My eyes were popping out my head. I was turning black and blue all over. I had tried to find the girl inside me that was excited about life. She was gone. I had lost myself. Within all this I decided to start dealing meth. I got involved with the wrong people. Gangs. Mafias. My family had turned their heads away and would not accept my phone calls. I had nothing left to live for. . . . I called my parents two days before fathers day and said i was ready to go to treatment. Since then I have not relapsed once. I have been clean for 1 year and 7 months. I beg of anyone reading this: DO NOT USE METH. NOT EVEN ONCE!!! Get help. It is worth it!!!!