Speak Up

All through school, Elementary, Jr. and freshman year of high school I was a good student, got good grades. Then at 15, I was smoking weed, doin ecstasy, mushrooms, cocaine, acid, heroin, and then I tried meth for my 1st time, and knew I found my love. I was addicted RIGHT off the bat. All through high school, i was a normal student,(for a meth addict) Not going to class, getting high, getting picked up by cops. I got sent to an alternative school, where I had graduated, and got knocked up not even 2 months after graduating. This is where life really happened for me. I had an abortion, and then started shooting up crystal meth... sometimes Crank if there was a batch made up. Started hanging around with the wrong crowd... prison gangs to be exact, and oh it was horrible. I was 19, major meth junkie, stealing cars, dealing drugs, carrying guns and shotguns, hanging with the wrong crowd. let me back up some, at 18 after I graduated, my best friend had never done meth, and he wanted to try it, so he went with me to pick up and get high, and that started him on a bad addiction that took him to Heroin, and then a psyche ward not long after, and that was when I changed up my friends, and couldn't do what I did to my B.F. to any other of my long time "friends." So I'm at this party an meet this chick who then introduces me to a guy from a prison gang, who kinda took me under his wing from then on out. Never had a sexual relationship with this guy, though I wanted one, I later find out he was looking out for me, since I was so young in the "meth game" he didn't want me to turn out like him. (found him 4 yrs later and we talked about our addiction) He was shooting up, and I was only smoking, and I begged and PLEADED for him to shoot me up, just once, and after a week of begging, he finally shot me up. keep in mind the O.D. I did. That was in Jan of 06, and later I get kidnapped, stuffed in a storage unit, with guys coming and going, raping me for 18 hours straight. I don't remember what happened or how I got away but it was the LONGEST time of my life. Feb 06, been awake and high for 18 days straight, my parents call the cops cuz I'm talking nonsense. I go to the metro jail for 7 days. March 06, I get caught in a stolen vehicle, and tried to lie my way out of it, like the cop couldn't see I was a full blown addict, and go to jail with a 2nd degree felony for 9 days, get out on a fail to file. My third time going to jail, april 7,06 a cop who I still talk to today, arrested me on a 2nd degree felony warrant. Before actually taking me to jail he drove me around, and gave me this awakening... saying "your too young, and too beautiful of a girl and haven't even experienced life yet. you don't realize what this drug is doing to you. take my card, give me a call if you want help when you get outta jail" and I took his card. while getting checked into the jail, and not thinking, I had a needle in my pocket, and when the lady guard took it out of my pocket, I looked at the arresting cop, and he took it from her and told her she didn't see anything, and that was the awakening I needed. Since that day, I haven't touched any drugs. The charges I picked up in less than 3 months. 8 charges has been my worst enemy the past 5 years, not being able to do what I want, get jobs I want. But today I am a motivational speaker for Junior high and High schools in my area, and want to go do MORE outside my area. I feel I have a better connection with the students, than a 50 year old recovering addict... just because it did happen to me, and it can happen the anyone! I just got my background expunged, and actually looking to go to the Police Academy, and be that cop that was there for me that night who gave me a chance, and could see I was screaming in silence for help. I love telling my story, to those who want to hear it, and those who don't. Life is AWESOME. OPEN YOUR EYE'S AND GIVE IT A CHANCE. THERE IS HOPE... I AM A RECOVERED METH JUNKIE OF 5 YRS+. TTL!