Speak Up

Come back to us you were such an amazing Daddy and husband we talked and laughed you played and loved. You took care of us and loved us and never acted the way you do now with the explosive attitude and being awake for days keeping all of us awake with your yelling and screaming about how frustrated you are about nothing and everything all at the same time. you never hold the baby and love her anymore and you only yell at our 4 year old everytime she comes in the room. You act like you hate us now like we hold you back from hell. And we miss you Daddy more and more everyday. We miss your sweet voice and your beautiful smile I miss watching you play with the children as you roll around on the floor. Now you are always gone but when you are here you hide from our life like you are gone no longer part of the family and you try to blame the kids to make you look better but you told us you hate us for no reason at all. I found your Meth and tourch and pipe in your back pack yesterday and it all seems so clear But you don't know I saw it or you would have lost it. You are never nice to me anymore and you tell me I am stupid and how I mess everything up yelling at me for everything I doYou have been so mean and you pretend like you don't remember but I bet you do you are just ashamed deep down inside somewhere. you ripped the covers off me while I was sound asleep and started screaming about how messed up everything is. But when I ask if I should leave you beg me to stay and tell me I am the only one you want for the rest of your life so I know you're still in there behind all the bad and I love you so much How do I help what do I do. Please come back to us we miss you so much even though your here.