Speak Up

I never really thought of the fact that I would ever cross paths with it. Then again, I was 12. And I thank God that I still haven't. I still never thought that THAT would ever even be near my friends, family and I. As I grew older, I opened my eyes more and reality kept slapping me in the face. Without my friends, I wouldn't have kept my stuff together. Just recently during the summer (about 3 months ago) one of my 3 closest friend, Graciela, went MIA for about two weeks. I didn't think much of it. I thought she was just doing her own thing. That's when I got a call from her. She told me with her voice breaking that she had been suspended from work because she had been doing meth. How was I supposed to react? I didn't know what to say. I couldn't say it was gonna be okay because it wasn't. Weeks passed and things weren't any better. She would call me one day telling me how her life at home is falling apart. The next day it was as if she disappeared. It went on like that the whole summer. She was So skinny, she was already tiny. That day i saw her, it just wasn't her. I was mad and hurt because I knew she was doing that and there was nothing I could do to help. Where could I have gone? It wasn't soon until her and others she had been doing meth with had gotten caught by the police. She had taken the blame. She got locked up and got out. She's on probation and on ankle right now still. I'm worried due to the fact she has said many times she still craves it. But that's not it, my other friend recently asked me to do it with her. and Graciela. Of course Gracie agreed. I on the other hand was caught so off guard. Alexcia always said how she would never go on that again. She knows how her sister got while she was on that. So why would she turn on her words all of a sudden ? i would rather see them be sober and miserable than methed out. I know I wont be always there to tell them what and what not to do. Even if I could, chances are they wouldn't listen anyways. I will try though. Idk, I guess I just love those girls too much. I know its the wrong path for them to go. I know they're too young. I know 16 and 17 year olds shouldn't do that. I know it will ruin their lives. How do I help? I need help..