Speak Up

I don't have much time to upload my story but..........

PLEASE BE AWARE that men purposely and intently manipulate and control women through meth.....

My experience in Helena, MT was that of a living, breathing nightmare. A perfect crime being practiced with a group of men in a small town that appears safe.

After my daughter left for college began my true terror. I am a forty five year old female that has never been alone. I am overly trusting and childishly caring. I am a decent, loving mother, sister, and daughter.

Because I am outgoing, I thought it was ok to announce to the world that "I have emptiness syndrome" and as i say now to myself - I should have just announced "I am easy prey and anyone can do anything to me." This was my first mistake. I have recently learned that these men look for caregiving women and /or trusting, OF ALL AGES!

Trying to make a long story short........

I thought I was with my perpatrator for much much shorter than 8 months. He purposely tried to get me hooked on Meth, left me homeless, no transportation, and in a terrible environment. I was sexuallyassaulted, physically assaulted but most importantly, mentally hyjacked!

I was rescued in away -by accident.I t was a perfect crime....He told me over and over that no one would believe me because I would seem crazy or a volunteer junkie.

My family doubts me, My dauhter is convinced I am a meth addict. Which is not true. This drug would never be a choice drug for me. Meth creates a world of its own. And you have no idea that you appear high.

The police seem to doubt me. My friends look at me like I am a liar. I keep trying to explain to everyone it is like I am drowning and everyone that walks by says I am not.

I have become preoccupied with proving my case. The one thing that stands out to me is Human Trafficing. The prostituted women in human traffic were once consdered criminals. Now justice prevails and we all know they were victims. I AM A VICTIM!

Because all the drugs have damaged my thinking, I am aware I have made some poor decisions. I have recently gone back to the perpatrator in order to get the truth out of him. I am not on Meth. I also feel that this man needs to feel how it is on the flipside. But my true hope is he admits his guilt and together we can educate as the Avengers.

I am also preoccupied with avenging the men who purposely participated and purposely try to get females addicted. It is truely unbelievable to me that someone would intentionally try and ruin anyones life. I can not accept me not doing anything about this. I will die trying. I am a ghost of my old self..

Sincerly, MJ