Speak Up

All I ever wanted was to be a mother & a wife, to be loved. I met what I thought to be an amazing, sexy, sweet man. Then I lost him. For whatever reason, my gutter self esteem just wanted him back, to love him...then I got him back, about 10 years later, damaged. I didn't realize the extent...I allowed him to manipulate & lie to me. Here are just a few things that have taken place in our battle with meth: 1.My care was "stolen"...not really, he loaned it in trade for drugs 2. He stole an heirloom ring of my mothers that I mistakenly showed him as my "prized possession" 3. He was arrested the morning after I came home from having our son 4. "through sickness & health" he has never been there for any procedures, cancer scares or surgeries I have had 5. He has had more opportunities for rehab & with me than I can begin to tell 6. He is a repeated felon 7. He has stolen & pawned bicycles, phones & paint ball guns of the kids

Despite these things he demands respect & shows a sense of entitlement. After 20 years I am divorcing him this year. I am sad to say despite so many chances & years he hasn't changed. This could be you at age 43. Alone, your kids don't like you or don't know you, no home, no job. Showing signs of impaired thinking & ill health. It breaks my heart, but I deserve more.