Speak Up

my mom hung herself when i was age 11 because of drugs and a year later i tried shooting up heroin and meth because i wondered why she loved drugs more than me. NOW I KNOW WHY. i have been shooting up mainly just meth since i was 12. i am now 15 years old not allowed in the house because my parents pressed a felony theft charge on me when i was 14 for stealing between 10000 and 20000 worth of jewelery. none of my aunts and uncles will let me talk to my cousins because they think i will influence them in the wrong way. nobody in my family trusts me at all. ive been to 4 rehabs and 2 mental hospitals. nothing has worked. i started prostituting when i was 13 just so i had enough money to get high regularly. i dropped out of school at age 13. ive been wanting to commit suicide but i cant build up the courage to do it..yet..thats what my mom said too. this drug took ahold of me before i even started 7th grade. i dont think i will ever be able to stop.