Speak Up

My name is David I’m 22 and not the best at righting things but my story goes like this Before I start using I had a good job running 2 shops 2 nice cars about 10g saved up I had a life and lots of friends life was good on track to make something of myself was even doing a college degree. after I have not got a job I don’t have a car I don’t have any money saved up im pretty much homeless if it wasn’t for my mum and dad and family got nothing at all to show for the last 5 years off my life Life got me down one day about 5 years ago got left by my girl after 3 years with her. so I decided one day to get high with my mates it was fine for about a year using ones or twice a week then I seen my best mate lose his mind with me one night ended up in the physic word and was never the same I watched friend after friend lose the battle with their minds slowly becoming crazy and not who they really are , I never realised it could do that to someone but it didn’t stop me from using it became an everyday thing, it was my only escape from the what was really going on it only takes one puff and the pain goes away everything seemed perfect again after that about 5 months later I lost track of everything what day of the week it was I didn’t even care if had real friends or not I start the criminal life started small stealing things from the family and other people whatever was easy then I started dealing witch made everything a lot worse because I could use as much as I like and I stop smoking it and wacking it instead that’s when my ice habit really began every day for the next 4 years I put half a gram of ice in my arm everyday I was making more money than I even have but using it all on drugs so really making nothing at all the only thing I have to show for it is a fried mind where I see thing that ant there and hear thing that ant there. what the ice has done to me is crazy when I started I didn’t think anything of it now I look back and I’ve lost 4 good friends to the drugs everything I even worked for all most lost my family aswell. it destroyed who I am as a person I don’t member who I was before imp told by all my old mates that take me back in to their life’s after I gave it all up that I used to be the centre of attention at a party and all ways had something to say was a real funny person always made everyone smile I could pick up a girl like that now I don’t even member him the man I used to be now imp stuck with who I am now it’s changed me for life my body is scared from my head to my feet it make me sick to c what I did to myself but I can’t change the past just do better in my future and stay off the drugs there a lot more to this story but basically all that really needs to be said it that ice has changed me into this person that can’t even have a life because my mind stopes me doing everything it hard to explain didn’t know it till I stoped and looked back now 5 years on from when it all started that it would do this to me it was all fun and games thought just part of life now even throw I don’t wont to be on the drugs any more I still crave it even day I find there no such thing and not being addicted any more just not wonting the addiction get the better of u vie been fighting it for 2 months now and its nearly killed me twice thinking of it now was just a waste of my life I hurt my mum and dad could never hold a girlfriend when I was on it even after I find it had to even talk to any one I get anxious as hell it’s hard to even leave the house it’s like now for some reason im worried about everything shit happens we all fuck up where only human all we can do is move on so being off the drugs life gets better everyday