Speak Up

My name is kelsey. im 20 years old... oh.... were to start? my life has been an uper and downer. mostly just downer. ive lost alot of things and have been hurt by everyone around me my whole life. the drugs... well they were my escape from past pain. a sense of having something. feeling good. wanted.... my best friend of 3 years was the one who introduced me to cocaine. i lost everything after that. even her. so much has happened sense. i quit cocaine because i found a different "escape" in order to quit coke... i started doing what i call the devils drug.... only once. then twice. now.... i dnt even know who iam anymore. i hate feeling this way. ive tried quiting,. ive tried every thing. im so lost. ive lost all my friends.. lost all confidence. everything. i used to be so happy and full of life. now i cnt sleep eat not a dam thing. this drug is the fukin devil and if anyone is thinking about doing any sorta drug.. its not worth this. not worth the staying up for 4 days. hallucinating. not paying your bills because you wanna get hiugh and not go to work. loosing all your good friends and becoming friends with the ppl you see in jail. why do i do this to myself? why!!! i need help. to stop... ive never been this over taken by anything. im helpless and weak. i normally can quit something and never touch it again... this drug has literally taken my soul. im lost ... i used to be kelsey. now to the world im the distant tweaker. :( another junkie