Speak Up

My name is May. Im 18. My grandparents took care of me all my life. My mother did and still does meth to this day. I dont really know when she started, but her doing it really did ruin mine, my brothers/sister, and my grandparents lives. She want really around during my childhood, and what i do remember is just visiting her but only to see if my little brother was okay. She was shooting up but now she just smokes it. She did smoke it when she was pregnant with my little brother. He is now 9 years old and he still cant read or write. Hes the slowest in his class, has anger issues, and just made friends this year. To this day my mother has not had a job for 4 years so my older sister and my grandpa provide for her and her son. My older brother has disowned my mother and when people say i saw your mom, he always replies thats not my mom. I know both my older brother and sister have done meth I have also done but not one of us does it now and its not bc of anything other than we dont to end up like her! Im now 8 months pregnant with my first baby and for the first time in my whole life I finally asked my mother to quit. My exact words were "mom we all konw you do meth, but Im leting you know if you want to be in the babys life or even hold him you need to stop." Her reply was "I need it, it helps me to get everyday, makes me feel better, its like a medicine for me. So if you dont want me to touch him thats fine I wont cause Im not going to quit for anyone." I was so shocked I just went to my room and cried. But I have decided I dont need her and she of course doesnt need me. So she still does what she does and we still take care of her for the sake of my little brother who she will take with her if we kick her out. we plan to kick her out soon and keep my brother, we are just waiting for the new year. There is no and will never be a point in meth. You just stay up for days doing nothing, being stuck, thinking about what to sell to get more, just to be a zombie(your here and your awake but your not you, your just stuck) dont waste your life being stuck, wishing you could do this or that, wishing you could change it all, wishing you had more, just bc you did meth!!! Say no and live life dont WASTE or LOSE it!!!!!!!

NO PIONT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!