Speak Up

I was beautiful, and no I'm not trying to be conceited, i was beautiful to the public eye. I actually got signed to a modeling company, they had Gigs set up for me and EVERYTHING. I ruined it by trying meth, and now i'll never have that job EVER. This is what happend... Me and my friends stayed after school one day... and we met up with some meth heads, at first i said "There is NO way I'm doing this." Then my friends looked at me and shook their heads. They made me feel embarrassed. So i gave in, and i took meth. I threw up for days, and when i finally stopped and everything returned to "normal." thats when i craved it again. Two months later, i was at a party with some friends i was so tired they kept telling me to take more, take more. My friend kept take more and more. i woke up to the police and they were raiding the house. My friend... was in a body bag outside... DEAD. I was treated at a center in Minnesota, i got out when i was 18. I lived on my own for two years in Minneapolis. Then one night my friend was high on meth and came over, all cracked up. She had sores bleeding on her face and she said "i JUST need money Alexis... PLEASE what happened to you... WE CAN SPLIT IT... SHARE.." i slammed the door in her face.. then for a few days i was in a bad funk, i felt like nothing mattered in the world and that i needed more meth. My face still looked like shit. But i didn't care i just needed another fix.. one more. So i called up my friend and told her that i had money, and that i was willing to split the meth with her. We toked up, and i ended up having a seizure. I overdosed. Its been a few years, i've been in-and-out of treatment for different types of drugs. I'm clean right now, three days clean off of meth. My friend that came to my door isn't so lucky.. she actually died a few weeks ago.

to think this all started from peer pressure, and now.. i don't have any friends left, they are dead or selling themselves for money. TAKE MY ADVICE... NEVER try meth. R.I.P Morgen J 11/30/11. You will be greatly missed.