Speak Up

I know so many people who have done meth. Meth is really hard to not do, at least where I come from. I grew up in the heart of east Vancouver, and many of my friends are already heavily involved in meth. Even pressed caps of ecstasy nowadays all have meth in them, so anybody whose done a cap has likely done meth. One of my good friends is addicted to meth, and I see him on it all the time. The other weekend, he brought over some caps, we railed them, and it turned out to be meth. I ended up smoking meth that night, it was the first time I had really ever tried meth. I've stayed clear of it since and I hope not to relapse, though it's harder than it sounds. Although meth can bring you in from the moment you try it, I can't say everybody is like that. I know people who have gotten off meth, I know people who have tried it and never gone back, I know people that do it in secret, and it's hard for even me to tell if they're still using. Meth can be dangerous. My experience with it wasn't short of being fucked up; it messed up my body temperature. My body was hot and radiating heat though I felt as though I were standing outside on a cold winter day unclothed. I heard voices in my head, which doesn't happen to me very easily; I've taken many different types of drugs and from what I can tell I'm mostly sane. Being high on it already, I thought it was good idea to smoke it, but I know I wouldn't have chosen to do that if I were sober, it was the meth speaking. Don't plan on doing it anytime later than the afternoon if you want to sleep, nothing keeps you awake moreso than meth.

One of my friend's whose recovered without relapse for over 5 months (which is the time it takes for the cravings to lessen; like smoking cigarettes is easier to quit after 3 days) had told me after she got over her addiction that the meth had told her not to tell me about her meth use because I wouldn't be friends with her anymore. That was the meth talking, of course I would still be her friend. I've seen what meth does, I've seen what it can do, I've seen what it's like first hand, and I can say that this is a dangerous drug. By far the worst aspect is how it effects your serotonin levels. You can never be as happy as you once were being sober after you've tried meth. It literally effects how much happiness your body is able to contain at one time, and after constant use, the only way to feel a normal amount of happiness is to be high on meth. This is how it gets so addictive, it's made to seem like you need the drug to be happy, and this is the case for every meth addict. Everyone wants to be happy, but how happy are you really if you're addicted to a substance so harmful, so overwhelming, so deadly that you don't know when you're going to overdose in your pursuit of artificial happiness?