Speak Up

When I started doing meth it was only once in a while, when a group of us would stay up for days at a time then crash out. Soon enough, I started doing it alone at all times of the day. I started doing a line when I woke up, when I got to work, in the afternoon, when I got off work, and then all evening. I would have to drink tons of liquor or cough syrup just to fall asleep to do it all again the next day. If I did too much I would get all sweaty and shaky and would avoid my friends so they wouldn't know I was high. I felt paranoid and isolated all the time. I made the decision to move away so I wouldn't have access to it anymore. Now I try to shut my ears when I hear people talking about it so I won't know where to get it in my new city. I've managed to stay clean for over a year but I still want meth everyday. I wonder if that feeling will ever go away...