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I am at the end of my rope. I don't know what to do.. I have been an addict to one drug or another for 18 years now. I am a meth junkie now and I believe it is the worst thing I've encountered so far. I don't know what to do. I have a boyfriend who I love more than life itself..The problem is that he will support me quitting but won't quit himself.. I will not leave him no matter what. I have been very unhealthy.. I had a car accident 2 years ago and since then it’s been one thing after another. My latest issue as of yesterday.. I have several sores in my mouth on my tongue and the inside of my lips... My tongue is yellow. I am terrified. I'm gonna call the doctor for an appointment Monday but he's probably gonna say see dentist. I have no dental coverage. I don't know what to do I've googled and keep seeing HIV mouths ...looks like mine. I am so so scared. I used to escort...condoms have broken in the past. Please god don't let it be aids. I'm scared. I need help…