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Hi, I'm now 29. been on meth since I was 16. I am now getting help! I'll never forget when me and my kids' dad owed a guy for our meth. he showed up with 2 full size trucks and four other guys, all had guns and said we r takin what we want for what u owe! My two small sons were there and watched our couches, tv, Computer, vacuum, our hot water heater, all my jewelry. they took as much as they could fit in the truck including my oldest kid's brand new bike he had never even rode. if we had tried to stop them we all would have been killed so we did nothing and had nothing left!!! it will take everything u hav: mind, body and ur kids things one way or another. I have been trying to stay clean since that which was five years ago!!!!!!! The longest I have stayed clean was a year but fell right back into it I am now raising my kids alone. I have had boyfriends but they always walk out leaving us alone without food. I've lived in a house with no running water for a month cuz their dad just left. haven't heard from him since that. it three years ago. I feel like I have to have it to be a good mother just cuz my body hasn't functioned without it for thirteen years .... But finally I reached out and I'm going on three weeks clean !!! Please pray for my family and I not cuz I want u to but cuz my boys deserve the best in life and I could use all the help I can get ......