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My brother had an addiction to meth and heroin, I never understood it. I didn't understand what was so great about it all. It especially scared me after I had my son and my brother was living under the same roof. He's now in jail and has been for almost a year. We don't know when he will get out. Over a series of events since he was locked up I left my husband. When I left him I started dating a guy that I'd known and been attrActed to for a long time. It was the worst mistake of my life. 4months into the relationship I found out he was doing meth. Not only was he doing it, he was cooking it.somehow along the way I wound up trying it. im still amazed that I did. I was always so against drugs and the people that used them. They tore my family apart and took my childhood. I did meth for almost three months straight. When I wasn't on it or didn't have it I was a mess. I was easily aggregated and very angry. Once the anger went away, I cried. I cried constantly. I had just done a line when I found out I was pregnant. I quit the day I got a positive result. I believe I'm about 12 to 14 weeks now. I used the entire month of October and up until I found out I was pregnant on November 18th. I haven't touched it since. I'm worried. I don't know who to talk to about it or who to turn to. Will my baby be okay? What could I have caused. I find out exactly how far I am in two weeks. Until then I could use some piece of mind or advice. Have any of you been through this? What happened? I left the baby's father. Who is the "meth man" please help me