Speak Up

I don't understand what has happened...or why!! I miss you...I miss everything about you! I miss the laughter and your randomness! I miss the loving husband I once had. I know there is nothing I can do to change you or to change your mind about this drug, but I wish you could see what you are losing! You are losing me and your 12 week old son...you are losing your sister and your nephews! Why are you doing this?? Why can't you look for help?? I just don't understand. I don't want to lose you, I don't want to leave you, but you are leaving me no choice! I can't let this drug be around my son..which means I can't let you be around your son. I am trully sorry and I trully want you back, but you must make that choice. I can not do it for you!