Speak Up

Dear Methamphetamine, I want you to remember that I MADE YOU before you stole EVERYTHING from me! YOU rode into my life early in the year of 2007, riding on your beautiful white stallion, with your silky blonde hair flowing behind you getting tangled in the wings that you had spread outside of that sexy white dress that made you appear to be an angel sent from Heaven above. YOU made me feel like a King, YOU gave me a purpose. YOU fulfilled my every desire. YOU took me to the edge of the world and showed me everything as far as my eyes could possibly see and told me that it could ALL BE MINE. YOU gave me the world and gave me the option to set my own rules, to live outside the law, to think that I was smarter and better and stronger, that NOBODY could defeat me or take me down. I felt that you was a gift from God himself when you gave me the wings and power to fly, but soon realized that it was all a lie when you stole from me the sky in which I would fly. I am writing this letter to say “Good-Bye.” I must end the relationship and distance myself from your grasp, protect myself from your deceiving lies, your false pride and false courage. I may be good for you, METH, but YOU are not good for ME! I want you to know the damage you have cause in my life, the damage that will take me years to repair, and some of the damage that is non-repairable. A) YOU stole my morals. I lost all feelings and didn’t care what I did, or who I hurt. I hurt everyone who ever came into contact with me, but the true and most devastating hurt was cause to all the friends and family who love and care about me and who I love and care for more than anything in this world.
B) YOU took away my judgement and allowed me to put myself in harms way on more than one occasion. You let me walk into that house where the loaded gun was shoved in my face and I was forced to react in a very violent manner. A lot of people were seriously hurt that night all thanks to YOU, METH! I thank God everyday that nobody lost their lives, but YOU should be ashamed of yourself, METH!
C) YOU stole my reputation when you caused me to lie to my friends and family. You lied to me and made me believe that they would believe my lies and what they didn’t know wouldn’t hurt them. You blocked the reality and clouded my perception so I wouldn’t realize that they already knew what was going on in my life, that they already knew you had the ball and chain attached and you was leading me around like a lost puppy trying to find his way home. D) YOU destroyed the positive relationships that I had spent years building. You took away the only people who I ever truly knew understood me and left me with no one to talk to, and afraid to ask for help. I HOPE YOU SUFFER A LONG, TORTUROUS DEATH, ALL ALONE AND BY YOURSELF SO YOU MIGHT UNDERSTAND AND FEEL THE PAIN THAT YOU CAUSED! E) YOU showed me a path to complete self-destruction and utter despair, so dark and terrifying that I felt I had no other way out except to murder who I was. You led me to suicide, METH! You led me to want to kill the person that I had become so that I could never again be who I once was. METH, I WILL SIT AND WATCH YOU END YOUR LIFE, JUST LIKE YOU SAT BY AND WATCHED WHEN I ENDED MINE.