Speak Up

Meth is a monster,after you're first try you can turn around and never look back at that first try. second try, the monster owns you're soul. Take it from me I should know. I was 16 when I first used it. I could never forget that.I smoked a few bowls, I barely got high well atleast I think I didn't. So then I used it again bad bad choice. I was hooked, but I had it under control, I'd use for a couple days, then get off a couple days. Same routine for a couple weeks, then I started shooting up, that's where all the trouble had started, dropped out of school, lost al my friends, but gained using friends faster then I lost my sober friends. Three months later, there was no control at all into my addiction, I started looking different, acting different. I was the one to help others before I helped myself, but after meth, nope, my next fix was the only thing I helped. What happened to my life? How did I even get here? Catching myself talking to myself, looking out my window for who knows what,.anything I guess, carpet surfin, tweaking. Just making a fool out of my self.. Why did I let it get this far in 6 months? The feeling it gave me I guess is what did it, made me feel like I can do anything in the world with no troubles, so I stole a car , but never caught a charge(I brang the car back). How did my life get so messed up? Meth changed it all. Meth took my soul. Meth took over my life for 10 months. I realized I needed help, when I told my mom to "go off and die and die somewhere" that really hit me after I came down, I just couldn't believe that I said something that bad to my mom. So I seeked treatment. I got the help I needed and deserved. It was hard at first. but I did it, because I wanted to get sober. Today, it still is a struggle, but I take it one day at a time, though I am only 3 months clean, I feel way better than I ever did before. I look at meth as an lesson in my life. And please believe me. LESSON LEARNED (: Glad I found the methproject, somewhere where I can share my story, with others that went thru the same stuff. Thank you. One Day At A Time