Speak Up

I fell in love with Crystal, only 4 or so days ago. I'm falling apart now, and I feel like my life is officially over. I'm only 15, and I know I've destroyed my life a great deal. I can't eat, and I either feel like I'm never asleep, when I am obviously asleep, or I feel asleep when I am obviously awake. I don't feel the need to answer anyone when they talk to me, and I ignore everyone when I want to. I am so numb, and I keep having flash backs of the horrible past 48 or so hours.. everything is so ruined, and I am so hopeless. I just want help. I need help.