Speak Up

Ever since I can remember, my father has been a meth addict.Though I knew there was a reason he was always in prison, I never knew it was meth. I was a child, I didn't know what meth was. As a baby I was given to my grandmother to raise, which was the best thing to ever happen to me. Meanwhile, my father was on an endless spiral downward. As I grew older, my father entered my life a little bit more, but I didn't like it. He was so mean, and awful. He only cared about me as long as he was clean. I've seen him beat doors down, smack my step mother in the face, accuse people of things they weren't doing, and get thinner than a skeleton. As the years went by, his brain has decayed. He goes on his own for a few weeks, and he's high all the time. These drug trips get worse each time. I've grown to despise my OWN father, and there was a time when I wish my mother had sat me down and told me he'd died. I have a little sister, who's seen all that violence, and who now isn't allowed around my father. Her mother is infatuated with my father and will end up getting my little sister taken away. When he lived with me, he stole a bunch of my family's things, and I developed anxiety. I have learned from my father, I WILL NEVER EVER TOUCH METH. Or any drug for that matter. It ruins lives, and hurts your body beyond repair. My father is one of the worst examples, where the drug bests him. He'd rather himself be high, and his family on the street. He won't keep a job and takes people's money to support his drug habit. Meth, not even once, is the best advice. It does more harm than good, while you're experiencing a synthetic euphoria, your body, and relationships with people are dying. Your soul is flaking away into nothingness. My father has told me countless times he'd get me any drug I wanted, yet I never relented. Stay strong. You can get through these periods in your life, WITHOUT meth. Without any form of synthetic substance. Instead seek out people, seek out God, or whatever things that you know can help eliminate the problem. Being high gets rid of the momentary problem, but it's still there when you come down. Keep your head up <3