Speak Up

I met my boyfriend years ago. We lost touch for over 7 years and now he's back in my life for about a year now. I love him with all my heart. Just recently I started researching meth and it's symptoms. A few of them really scream at me and maybe I'm still scared to admit that he's using something, because he's such an amazing man and treats me so good. He stays up for days at times though. The most I've noticed recently was 4 days and he is currently pulling what I like to call "one of his disappearing acts". If this were a normal situation I would of already called the police and filed some kind of missing persons report. But this is about the 5th time he's done this. He did it gradually though, with the first time being 1 day, then 3, then 4, then 5, then the longest time being 7 days of not hearing from him, 7 days of hell for me. I can't stop worrying and now that I've seen this website and how meth effects people I'm more worried than ever. I don't know how long he's been doing this, if meth is what he's doing. He does jerk a lot in his sleep when he comes back from these trips he takes. He doesn't call or try to make contact with me until he comes back home. He always has an excuse as to why he didn't call or text me. When he's here and I feel like he may be on something the only signs I see of meth are how he stays awake for what to me seems like days, but he insists that he falls asleep after me and wakes up with my alarm. He's very talkative and busy, either on the internet or doing his work. I do remember him taking a tv apart one time but he did put it back together. He's never let his appearance go, or maybe he does when he's not here. I don't know what actually goes on when he's away. Can meth users know that they're going to binge and hide away until they're done? Do all of them eventually lose their teeth and pick at their skin? Because he shows no signs of either of these. How long exactly is the "tweaking phase". I saw him this past Tuesday and it seemed like he was on something, but still in a way, his normal self. I heard from him briefly the next day, he told me he loved me and would talk to me later, I haven't heard from him since. I'm scared, worried, hurt...but like I said he's done this before so that's the only thing that calms me down. I want to help him but I know he has to want the help. Is he on meth? How do I ask him this?