Speak Up

I am married to a meth addict who has chosen her drug over everything and everyone else. She has tried to quit but continues to spread hate and sabotage herself. She says over and over I have no one but I am there and have been dealing with this for over half a year with no one there for me including her. We have children too and it has hurt me so bad that someone would chose a drug over being a mother and wife. I need someone to talk to I am at the end and her emotional abuse is taking a toll on me and I am getting sick myself because of her and the way she treats me. I just need a little advice from someone who has been there. I am at the point of giving up and moving on but at the bottom of my heart I love "her" when I say "her" I mean who she really is without the drug not the hollow hate filled shell she is now. I also care about my kids and don't want them to grow up without a mom because if left up to her she will do meth till she dies.