Speak Up

hey, im joseph,. im 18, i started doing meth,. when i thinkk....i was....about.....15....... so its been 3 years. i started out taking speed pills. you know, from the docter,to snortin lines, to smokein bowls to injecting it into my arm, and this didnt happin overnite, but the first time i tryed it, i was hooked.and now. im getting worser, im not robbbing from my grandfather,hes all i got, he means more to me thna meth, but i cant say no to it, any chance i get. and it totally, makes me not.....me....just the methed out me,....and i like it......still 4 some reason, this dosent steer me away, i need help,because i wanna break free. some of my freinds think, tht il never get out, but the way i go about it, i dont see how i could escape.i dream about meth, i always think about meth,... my favorite topic, id bet, is meth, and right now, yes. im on meth. ive only been up 1 full day so far, but im not sleeeping anytime soon, i want to stop. someone, talk to me......i neeed a voice.......and i also was cooking the meth, so i was in pretty deep, my partner went to prison 4 it, i got away. with it, cuz they didnt know anything bout me. but....its taken over my life. completly, i fihgt to sustain control. butt,....idk my self control only goes so far.....help me, i cant let it do me, like its done everyone else...... i can still possibly come back from this.......i think........but not alone, i need help, a voice, a directiion, cuz im spun out and lost,clueless,wired,high,over ampred, and at a loss.......