Speak Up

Hi, my names Destiny, Im 16 & I am the daughter of an addict.. My role model, I lost to meth. My father. Not a day goes by that I dont hurt, not for me but for him. Yes, i've been betrayed, stolen from, lied to & trust was broken but I know it wasnt my father who did such things to me & my family. It was the MONSTER controling his life, actions & mind. METH. Many nights i spent blaming myself for not being able to fix him, blaming God for putting this CURSE on us. Praying through anger & hurt, but still recieving no answer or any healing. Today, I dont blame myself. Today Im not mad at God, I thank him. People say theres nothing a child can do, but there is. LET THEM KNOW YOU LOVE THEM, INTRODUCE THEM TO GOD. They will get through it. Dont encourage them, or give them sympathy but more forgiveness. Let them realize they are broken & forgive them because they are not in control. I know what it's like to seem like your standing alone & in the wrong because your forgiving of the addict. But sometimes a seed needs to be planted & some hope given. Yes, ive hurt because of my father, but I choose not to dwel on it because I KNOW her hurts more than I. My Dad is now clean, & praying it continues. Almost 2 years. God has changed his life, & mine. God is restoring my FAMILY. Im sharing because I want loved ones to know there is hope. PRAY. The fight isnt over, dont give up on yourself or your loved ones. Theres a reason for all things, & this thing has made me STRONG. It has made me who I am. If your an addict, DONT give up on yourself, you have ones that love you. GOD loves you, I love you. If your a loved one of an addict, dont give lose hope & stay strong. Remember, your not alone. Thank You for listening to my story.. God bless.