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HI IM PATRICK IM MARRIED 18 YEARS AND HAVE 2 BEATIFUL KIDS BOY 17 AND GIRL 15. IT STARTEDOUT A WOUNDERFUL LIFE MIRICLE AFTER MIRICALE. THEN I FOUND A FRIEND HIS NAME IS CHRYSTAL METH. BOY WHEN I MEET HIM 5 YEARS AGO I THAUGHT ALL MY PROBLEMS WHERE SOLVED. WELL IN THE BEGING IT WAS PERFECT. THEN I BEGAN THE TRANSFORMATION INTO THE DEVIL. I SPENT 400.00 DOLLARS EVERY OTHER DAY FOR 5 YEARS. MY BODY STARTED TO SHUT DOWN I BASEICLY WAS DIEING FROM THE INSIDE OUT AND DIDNT EVEN KNOW IT. I STRTED TO MISS WORK AND EVENTUALLY I LOST MY JOB AFTER 18 YEARS WITH CO. I WAS PART OWNER AND WHAT HAPPENED IS I STARTED STEELING FROM MY SELF. THE SAD PART WAS MY FRIEND METH AND I WOULD JUSTIFY THAT EVERY THING WAS OK. I NEVER THAUGHT ABOUT MY EMPLOYEES AND THERE FAMILIES AND HOW THEY WHERE GOING TO FEED THERE FAMILES. ME AND DIDNT CARE IT WAS US AND US ALONE. AFTER THAT I STARTED MY OWN BUISNES IN THE SAME FIELD. MY WIFE AND I TALKED ABOUT IT AND BOY THIS WAS GOING TO BE GREAT. MY WIFE WAS ALL FOR IT AND LOOKED AT ME AND SAID PATRICK YOU WILL BE VERY SUCSESFUL IF YOU PUT GOD FIST. I THOUGHT THE WAS GREAT BUT I ALLREADY HAD A PARTNER THAT WAS METH AND I ALLREADY GAVE HIM MY SOUL. I OF COURSE DIDNT TELL HER THAT. MY BUOISNES LASTED 2 YEARS AND IN THE BEGING IT WAS GREAT AND WE WHERE ON A ROLL. THEN I STARTED HIRING PEOPLE SO I COULD HANG OUT WITH MY FRIEND MORE. I PUY PEOPLE IN CHARGE AND A SHORT TIME THEY STERTED LOOSEING INTEREST IN ME AND BECAME VERY HATEFUL TO ME. I DIDNT CARE AT ALL METH WOULD NEVER LEAVE ME HE ALWAYS MADE ME FEEL GOOD AND NEVER LEFT ME AND HE NEVER LIKED ANYONE I LIKED ANYWAYS. SO I STOPED GOING TO WORK AND OF COURSE I HAD TO SHUT THE DOORS. I HAD LET FAMILIES STARVE AGAIN AND DIDNT CARE. THEN ME AND METH STATED TO WORK ON MY FAMILY. I WASNT WOORKING SO EVENTUALLY I RAN OUT OF MONEY. BOY THAT KIND OF SUCKRD.THEN METH SHOWED ME HOW TO TAKE ROB FROM MY FAMILY THE ONES HOW REALLY LOVED ME AND CARED FOR ME. ME AND METH SHOWED NO REMORSE ON ANYONE IN MY FAMILY. THEN THE SHORTLY AFTER THAT MY FAMILY HAD TO LEAVE BECAUSE THEY WHERE TERRIFIED OF ME. I DIDNT EVEN LOOK THE SAME. WHEN I LOOKED IN THE MIRROR I SEEN A GREAY GUY BUT I EALLY LOOKED LIKE A MONSTER. I CONTINUED TO TAKE AND TAKE UNTIL I WAS ALMOST DEAD. I BECAME THE LONELIEST PERSON ON THE FACE OF THIS EARTH. METH KEEPT USUREING ME EVERTHING WAS GOING TO BE GREAT. THEN I WOKE UP ONE DAY AND STARTED TO DOUGHT HIM. I LOOKED IN A MIRROR ONE DAY AND I TRIED TO CLEAN UP I SAW NOTHING IN THE MIRROR. I WAS SCARED BECAUSE THEN I NEW MY FRIEND METH WAS THE DEVIL. I DIDNT KNOW HOW TO GET RID OF THIS CRAZY DRUG. SO OUT OF DESPERATION I CALLRD MY WIFE FOR HELP. WELL SHE TOLD ME I NEEDED A PROGRHAM FIR DRUG ABUSE AND NEEDED TO BE INPATHIONED PROGRAM. SHE FOUND ME ONE AND I WENT AND COMPLED THE PROGRAM. THE DAY I GOT BACK I THAUGHT EVERONE WILL FORGIVE MY I WAS WRONG. I WAS STILL ALL ALONE. I JUST WANTED TO DIE AND GET IT OVER WITH. METH HAD MY SOUL. I COULD NOT FIND A JOB AND MY WIFE WANTED A DIVORCE. I WAS NO LONGER A MAN BUT A LITTLE CHILD WHO COULD NOT TAKE CARE OF HIM SELF. MY ONLY WAY OUT WAS TO CALL ON GOD ALLMIGHTY. I GOT ON MY NEES AND PEGGED HIM TO TAKE ME BACK AND FORGIVE ME FOR WHAT I HAVE DONE. WELL GOD STERTED WORKING ON MY LIFE HE GUIODED ME TO OTHER PEOPLE IN THE SAME BOAT I WAS IN. I CONTINURED TO MEET OTHER METH USERS. AND THERE STORY WAS JUST THE SAME AS MINE. NOW METH IS OUT OF MY LIFE IM STARTING TO GAIN A LITTLE SELF ESTEEN AND STARTING TO TALK TO MY KIDS. MY WIFE STILL DOES NOT WANT ME AROUND. THAT BASTERED TOOK EVERYTHING FROME ME EVEN MY SOUL. LET ME TELL YOU SOMETHING IT WILL TAKE YOUR SOUL AND NEVER LOOK BACK. SO I SUGGJEST BE FOR YOU START PLEASE DONT YOU WILL LOOSE. MY NAME IS PATRICK 44 YEARS OLD AND STILL TRYING TO FIND MYSELF. METH YOUR A BIG WASTE OF TIME.