Speak Up

I am not sure when my mom first tried meth, i know she used it for a total of roughly 10 years. My mom has tried to stop using meth. she has relapsed about 4 time in a 10 year period. the third time she relapsed i was 12 years old. I and my family knew she had relapsed, but they didn't do anything. i would always get mad at my family for not caring and not doing anything. Then i thought "Why am i not doing anything." My mom and i have always been together because, my dad left us when i was 4. it was hard for me to take on the responsibility for caring for my mom when the rest of my family just walked away. I and my mother would sometimes stay out till 5 or 6 in the morning at random peoples houses. I didn't got to the seventh grade because of her addiction. Why didn't i stop her? Why didn't I showed her i cared when nobody else did? It was hard. I never spoke up, I never told her how bad she was hurting me. My sister then had her baby and my mothers eyes finally opened. she now knew why she MUST stop this addiction for this baby. I do not wish meth upon any of my worst enemies. Riding around at night there was a CD my mom had. Every time i hear a song from that CD it makes me want to puke i get physical sick. My advice to anyone who has parent or parents battling meth. Be there reason to stop! I wasn't and i regret that everyday i wish i would of stopped her from going into those rooms.......It's has been five years... My mom has relapsed once.......it's now been 3 years and My mom has been clean. I'm proud of my mother. We all need to speak up! Meth is the devil's weapon to bring humanity to destruction. Please anyone going through this...find someone you trust and speak up!