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MY BEST FRIEND

I'm Sarah. I'm 18 years old and my so called 'best friend' is a meth head. I never saw this coming. My best friend had issues all her life, constant battle with drugs in her family. First, she turned to smoking marijuana. And I was able to accept that. But then she moved in to my family's house, and things took a turn for the worse. She has anxiety problems, common sign of addiction, right? First, she started crushing up anxiety pills and snorting them in a bathroom. We knew she was on something. After she moved out and moved in with her boyfriend, I started noticing changes. She thought she had a disease. Got tested, turned out to be nothing. She was perfectly fine... But it didn't and doesn't explain her excessive weight loss, eating habits, and sleep habits. I went over to her and her boyfriend's apartment one day, and her boyfriend walked out to greet me. I immediately knew he was on something. They knew from the start I don't like drugs and they would NEVER make a drug deal around me or be on something when I was over. 2 promises broken, multiple times. But this time... I knew it wasn't marijuana. The boyfriend pulled something out of the freezer, cupped his hand, counted, and walked into their bedroom (where a deal was happening). I saw a pipe with him too. Then I noticed a burning smell. Not from cigarettes. It was a smell like something was burning in a kitchen. But nothing was in the kitchen... The smell made me sick to my stomach and so nauseous I walked out of the house.I refused to go back inside. So we drove into town. My best friend couldn't do the speed limit, was tripping over air, had no reaction while driving... And they played it off as "Oh she hasn't driven in over a week, she's having problems" They acted like I was stupid. I'm not this stupid. I later told my mom how they acted, the burning smell, how much weight my best friend lost, how sick she looked, and how the boyfriend smelled awful. I was embarrassed to be seen with them. But I just kept thinking "she's my best friend, she isn't this stupid to do meth" after watching her addict brother on every drug possible. Seeing how messed up he is, she wouldn't ever do it or bring me around it. I was wrong. Learning my best friend and sister was a meth head breaks my heart. It almost feels like betrayal. My family took care of her, gave her a loving home, accepted her into the family.. Smoking marijuana was one thing, but now that she's doing meth? It's a whole other road I don't want to travel along. I love my best friend to death. She is really like my sister. But I don't know what to do, anymore. Do you ever tell yourself excuses? Make yourself believe someone you love and care about isn't destroying their whole life? I can't keep telling myself this lie anymore. And I can't be around if drugs are involved. It's hard, and it truly breaks my heart.. But I can't. I won't get in to trouble for something that I've never touched a day in my life. I've never done any type of drug, nor have I wanted to, because I see my supposed best friend doing it and I see the effects it has on her. I just wish she would see...

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