Speak Up

Hello, I don't know if this is where I should be telling my story because I am not a meth user! Our whole entire family got introduced to meth by our son Justin. It was a journey that we did not choose to take Justin chose it for not only himself but for us too when he tried meth the first time. It was the most terrifing and heartbreak journey that I would never wish on my worst enemy. I remember sitting across the living room from my son when he was in a rage from the meth thinking I do not even know you, wondering what happened to the boy who once lived and breathed rodeo and when gone would call me at least once a day to tell me loved me, to the boy sitting across from me calling me horrible names and telling me I wasn't his mother just because I wouldn't give him money! I am not telling this story to bad mouth my son but to let people know that this is the results for loved ones when they have a meth user. Our family had guns stolen which were hawked for meth, money, anything of value just for his next fix. Justin and his girlfriend would get into violent fights and we would try to stop them not knowing how much danger we were putting ourselves in! My husband and Justin got into a fight one night and Justin slugged his dad so hard that the side of his face became swollen and very black and blue! He also broke his dads finger! he had so much strength that Pat, Me and his girlfriend could not handle him! The only thing that made him stop, was when his girlfriend told him we had called the sherrif! He left and was arrested! In about the last month he spent alot of time in Billings with drug users. We wouldn't see him for days and when we did he would come and sleep for days. We had people calling the house all hours of the night and I would scream and holler at them telling them to quit calling never realizing the danger I could have put my family in. I had his phone one day and decided that I would be nosey and listen to his messages, there was one from a person he owed money to and the message was,Justin you need to pay what you owe or your mother will pay for it. We had to call the law and they handled it from there! I know that Justin didn't ever mean to involve his family but it did! The night Justin was killed he was with three people from Montana who had come down to Wyoming. They were out on a deserted road and he got in argument with the shooter because she thought he was an informant it cost him his life because of the paranoid witch using meth and cocaine! The three people involved pushed my son out of the car and left him on that deserted road to bleed to death all alone and went back to Billlings to do more drugs! The only thing the shooter was ever charged with was tampering with evidence when she tried to clean the blood out of the car. She got away with murder because her rights to a speedy trial were violated. Are we bitter you bet we are. Ther is nothing good that comes out of trying meth just once. Our family learned the hard way about meth and our son paid for using meth with his life. He has two beautiful children who are such a joy and miss their daddy. For his funeral I had pallbears from the life he had in his school days and rodeo days I couldn't bring myself to let any of his friends from Lovell be one who shared the drug world with him. I knew and loved their mothers but couldn't bear to have their children carry my son to his final resting place. I cherish the good memories of my son and miss him so much! Somedays are ok but alot are filled with tears and bitterness. There is not a day goes by that I wake up with Justin on my mind and not a night that I go to bed with Justin on my mind. If God came and said ( which I know he wouldn't) you can have Justin but you have to have back with his addiction, our answer would be no. He is fine now, but never would our family go through living with the evil drug meth! Thank You for your time, The Marchant Family