Speak Up

Im 24 years old I just got out of jail last month I started doing meth in Dec of 2010 when I lost my job my daughters father had us move to Flordia to get me clean after 1 week in Flordia I left him and my 2 year old daughter in Flordia and returned to Colorado because I wanted to return to my life of meth use by March I was a full addict living with my dealer and selling my body to him and his friends to get high soon I found out I had mrsa from injecting bad meth about this time my daughters grandma who they lived with in Flordia died of mrsa after having 3 surgries at differnt clinics to try to treat the mrsa I was told I need to be hospitalized because the infection had gotten into my blood streem I decided I couldnt be in the hospital because I could not use so I continued my life of prostitution my daughter and her father became homeless in Flordia and had no where to go I promissed once I got my taxes I'd send them the money to come back my taxes came and I spent all $5000 on with in days and left them stranded in Flordia at this point I was so sick from the mrsa the only way I was able to get out of bed was if I was high my body was shutting down my dealer told me he couldnt have me die in his house because that would bring cops and he couldnt have that so he kicked me out that day I had a t and I told my best friend that I'd go to the hospital once I ran out of dope I did keep my work but by the time I got to the hospital the doctors said they were shocked I was alive I spent 14 days in the hospital while I was there the cops came and let me know there was a warrent out for my arrest because on of my "friends" wore a wire on me selling to them so once I was released from the hospital I'd be taken straught to jail on 10 felony charges so I started having my dealer come to the hospital and give me dope and I was injection it thru my IV when the nurses where out of the room on the 14th day I was caught doing it by 1 of the nurses as soon as she turned her back I ripped out my IV and ran out of the hospital I meet up with my dealer and went into hiding I told him about the cops and he than thought I was setting him up and wouldnt let me leave the house or use the phone after about a week his suspisions got the best of him and he beat me and tazzed me the cops where called and I went to jail I sat in jail for 4 months where I assaulted a police officer and added 2 felonies to my charges than I convinced a family member to post my $53000 bond I got out and was good for a month than meet a guy and went back on the run we spend 2 months getting high and than were arrested again and than we were both charged with multiple robberiesin 4 states I spent the last 6 months in jail he made a plea deal that I walked away with 5 years ISP but he got 25 years in prison Ive been out for a month now and I get to see my daughter and am putting my life back together my addiction costed me 2 years of my life and put a 25 year old in prison I didnt only effect myself I took people with me Im 24 years old and I am a multipul felone I never had a record and I was acualy very sucessful in my life now I have to be supervised when I see my daughter I have to report to a PO everyday and I have MRSA and Hep c so I dont know what my life holds I could die from these condictions at anytime I look back and I really believed that meth was just away to enjoy life and have fun with my friends and now I wish I would have said no it all starts with just once but never stops there