Speak Up

Hi, I'm Diana and I am 15. I am the youngest out of my family, I have 3 older brothers and the youngest is 21 and his name is Alex. Growing up Alex an I never got along, he always hated me and did mean things to me. But as we began to get older we began to get along. We played soccer together, played video games together, sang together, we did many things together. He was my favorite. Whenever he'd get in trouble I'd defend him and when I got in trouble he defended me. Then when he was 16 he got a girl pregnant. She moved in with us along with their baby girl. His girlfriend couldn't find a way to lose her baby fat, so she did crystal meth dragging Alex into it as well. And they both began to get thinner and thinner and they never slept and hardly ever ate. When they woke up they were angry and the baby always slept with me. When they broke up my brother left the drug. She moved out taking the baby with her. As time went by Alex met a girl and got her pregnant to, so he got a job. At the job he'd work at night...so he went back on crystal for his energy. When he was fired he had no more money for his drugs and he was already addicted so he began to steal. He stole all of my money and many of my parents things. His girlfriend broke up with him because if the drug and because he got angry and almost beat her. His daughter is now 5 and she is scared of him because when he wakes up he seems like the devil. Many times alex and I fight and he tries to beat me up. He's thrown my mother before but when that happened I swung at him and we got into the fight. No I am not afraid of him, but I will die before he lays another hand on my mother. Tonight he almost strangled his daughter telling her to shutup because she was crying, but I pushed him and kicked him, and when he came with a fist at me my dad came and punched him twice saying "don't ever hit my daughter!" Alex and my dad argued for about an hour and when it was over Alex came into my room and said "watch yourself in your sleep tonight." But I am not afraid because I know that my brother is possessed by demons and what I saw was satan speaking to me, not my brother. Many times I have been at his side always tried to help him in what I could, I said I'd never give up on him but I have and I'm done. Crystal meth has destroyed my brother's life, and other lives...not just my family but others as well...