Speak Up

About a month ago, I did a binge, just for a weekend. And two weeks later, I have developed Parkinsonism. I am permenantly crippled for life. I was really spun out of my mind, and on the third third day, after I took my last snort, I started hallucinating, twitching, and convulsing. The twitching and convulsions were minor, but the delusional psychosis was extremely intense. Satan and host of other demons appeared in my mind and began to try and convince me to rape my wife. I soon as I saw Satan in my mind, I knew I was overdosing. I began freaking out even more, full fear, and paranoia. I thought I was going to die right then and there. The part where you say to yourself "this is just a drug induced delusion." doesn't make Satan leave your mind. So I began to pray, and Jesus showed up! And he promised to spare my life, if I did not touch my wife. Somehow I left myself loose consciousness, even though I feared death. When I woke up, I was still high on meth. I had horrible headache, and through out the day my wife noticed that I would sporadically loose consciousness. For one week, I had the worst headache. The next week, I could no longer smoothly control my movements. The brain damage had set in, and it was obvious, that my life is ruined. It's been over a month since I last got high, and I can't even get out of bed. I depressed, suicidal, and physically crippled. Don't use meth. Please.