Speak Up

My name is Ryan, and I am lucky to have not tried meth. But I have unfortunately tried many others, enough to make me do four stints in rehab. Pills were my thing. But the last time I went, I was there and a kid who used meth was there and another one who was currently on it came in. Even before I got there I had honestly wanted to try meth. I knew of the dangers but I didn't care. This kid was out of his mind. It wasn't paranoia, it was full-fledged insanity. The kid actually stripped down and rubbed his feces on a window. I didn't know the kid but it really did break my heart to see him. I got out and I've been clean for almost 11 months. But the sick thing, the really sick thing is, I still have a desire to try meth, because of how "good" the first high is, I can almost forget the rest. Even after seeing that kid, who is now one of my closest friends, it still tempts me.