Speak Up

I been to the same man over 19yrs,he the father of my three kids and at one time my best friend.My nightmare started in 2003.At this time I didnt even know what meth was.He started using and sell which nights of no sleep wondering is in jail are something as bad died.I delt with beating for say the wrong the not allow him to bring it around are children even tho he did whe i was at work are not at home.He slept many women and chose a meth instead of a family.I did allow him to live me cause i knew my children needed and deserved bettter.I stayed strong for my children and what i belived in.Trust me was not easy,I was lonely and strugged to keep my family going.I was and am a single mom.This went on for around two yrs til it finally he was caught by the law.He got a tens sentence and only served a four half yrs.My life has had nothing but heartache and dispointments one right after another.I did nothing but stuggle to rise my children working a full time job and try to be a full time mom.I forgave him when he returned home,boy was this a big mistake.At first he was the perfect man for about a year.But when we hit some hard times he went back to selling.I deal with this again cause all i could do is think of how hard it was being alone with three.my children have been destroyed by what he has chose over them.My oldest had a baby at 14 my other two didnt really even know him.I had to do the hardest thing i turned him in to the cops.I delt with this for many years til i could not deal with this anymore.I delt with many beats mentially and physical i finally knew this drug was all he care about.How people could ever chose a drug and prison over there family is something I just cant understand.Yes being alone not really have a life,is worth my children have at least one parent they can depending on.I finally left him july 2012 and now once again am barely getting by.He the coward for not being able to deal with life and all it struggle heartache and dispointment for his children.This drug is stronger then love.I have one last thing i could go on and one what me and my children have had to deal with but going to end with not only do they do time there family of meth user do the worst time.I will be able to repair my soul from what i have had to going thru for this man cause a drug was more important then his family.I only can hope one day my life and my children life can be repaired with time and hope.For not did they lose a dad I lost my husband.