Speak Up

Some people write stories. Others take photos or paint.

Back to Gallery

Meth Kills

I am one of the strange ones. I went 28 years of my life without touching a serious drug like Crystal Meth Amphetamines. Stupid, Stupid, Stupid, choice. I was at a party with my boyfriend (who was a user for the year that we had been together and I did not know about it, I just thought he was superman) and a friend of ours came up to me with a rolled up piece of toilet paper in his hand. He said "here eat this". I said "fuck you, I'm not going to swallow a piece of toilet paper". My old man came up behind us and said "It's okay babe do it". So I did. The next three years of my life consisted of an eight ball a day to my own head, and dealing Meth and Pot out of my shit hole apartment. My life deteriorated, I lost jobs, money, My Daughter, My Family, freaking everything. During my horrible stint with the Meth monster my previously no drinking self also learned to dive to the bottom of a hard alcohol bottle. So the pluses are real obvious here. You can do Meth and lose everything important to you and pick up some extra self destructive habits along the way. Or you can just say no the the evil incarnate and keep your life, move forward and not be a total fuck up. I am 43 going on 44 living with my mom (who is a saint by the way and not everyone has the chance I have been given) and I still have not recovered from my fall into the belly of the Meth Amphetamine beast. You think you are different and can handle it? You think you have different circumstances and will be able to recover more easily? You are just fooling yourself. Quit lying to you. No one will really take that first step if you don;'t. Don't do it. Or admit that you are stuck in it's grasp. If you can step up and say "I am a Meth addict and I need help" the help is out there. Please, Please, Please, for your own sake, for the sake of your family, for the sake of your friends, get help. I would love to put up an image of my loss of teeth, my skin gone bad, my loss of 25 inches of hair. Boo, it's real, when I can afford to get a camera I will put them up.. Oh yeah, I lost all my stuff and all my money, hence I live with my mom. Again, you all don't have that option, I am just lucky that my mom is a wonderful person. Some of you will be shunned by everyone you thought you could depend on. Don't think it's not true, My mom turned her back for years. My luck came through the death of a loved one. My mother lost her husband, my step father of over 19 years. This will not happen for you. This should not have happened for me. If I could give my mother her partner back and die in drug addled swaller I think I might. I thank the powers that be every day for my last chance. Don't wait for your last chance. Change now.

blog comments powered by Disqus
See Related Content