Speak Up

my brother is 15 and in rehab. when i figured out he was doing meth he told me he would stop and that it would effect me in anyway. i would find him on the floor with his arms cut up and laying in a puddle of blood in the corner of his room. when he came back down to earth i would patch him up and he was smoking weed and doing drugs. he was hurting himself and then he snapped and went on a rampage. he tied me up and held his hand over my mouth and raped me i still cant look at him the same way. i am only 14 and i dont think are relationship wil ever be the same when he comes home i miss him and i hope they can help him. my parents found him having hallucintions and sent him to a rehab right away. im glad he's getting help but im worried he will not be the brother i once knew. i have been going to the doctor and i almost got pregnant from him luckily the doctor said i was lucky that it was negitive. idk what i would do if that had happened how would i tell my friends or my parents life was hell those painful weeks but its all over now at least i think so