Speak Up

My life went through a major change, I was drunk in the world, manufacturing and using meth,

already been to jail once for it and waiting to go again. But God had a plan for this life that had been a waste for ...myself and so many others...

You see, eight years ago he saved me, and not just my soul from hell, he done ...

something I thought could never happen...

He delivered me from my addiction and lifestyle. A new me was birthed, and thought it's not perfect(me), he gave me me power through the Holy Ghost to overcome and do better...

It was a crazy day for me, tried to get high, but nothing seemed to affect me like I wanted it to, kept trying...

Nothing. I was depressed, opressed, tired of myself and everything around me...

Nothing could make me happy...

Wanted to die...

But something...

Kept pulling at my heart...

I learned of it as a kid on church...

But I didn't think it had the power...

But...

The tug on my heart put me to my knees and I done something that evening I thought was useless...

I prayed...

For Him to save me...

Help me...

Let me die or do something for me..

Anything...

Everything...

Forgive me...

Come into my heart... Amen.

So I got up and went to bed, no sleep, just crazy thoughts...

Then peace... Rest... And here is where it got crazy, I felt something inside me, a fire in my chest, in my belly, in my head, couldn't move right. I thought, this is it... Stroke, brain anurism, the drugs won. It felt good, but I knew it wasn't natural, like a mix of every drug I've ever done all at once... Scared me... Got out of bed and couldn't walk... Tried to crawl to the door and hope someone was outside who could call for help. Then I heard Him. The voice. Said this is me... This is what I can do...(talking about the high I was feeling and scared of)... But you have to chose, Me or the same old stuff... Can I tell ya what my choice was? It was God :) my high didn't end there that night, He has drawn me closer...

It wasn't always easy, been many times I wanted to hive up or give in, but He knows our temptations and has a plan, a door, a path away from them... I never shall forget get that day, it was my true birth...