Speak Up

My name is Rachel and I am 18 years old. I found out last year that my mother has been doing meth my whole life and continues to do it to this day. She has stolen money from me and my sister and continuously lies to us. She is on probation and recently got busted for a bad u/a and spent ten days in jail. When she got out she was sober for a grand total of about 24 hours. I have no idea what to do to help my mother and as bad as i want not to hate her, its hard. I've lost alot of respect for her and i dont know if i can forgive her for all the things that she has done. I'm loosing hope and the one good thing out of this is that i will never try it. I dont understand how she could abandon her own family and not give a shit about us. All she wants is her drugs and I hope that I am never like her. I just want my mom back I want the mom that gave a damn. Shes sucked into the meth game of the four corners really bad and i hope that one day she will awaken from this shit and realize that she fucked up but until then its a never ending battle. Please to the people with any advice I need help. I need reasurance that I can stay strong and try to help her threw this. Sincerly the daughter of a lost mom