Speak Up

hello, before i tell my story let me be clear that ive never shot up ive always smoked it. and this little speel im writing is to help those addicted to meth to be confident that they can solve their problems and put more fear over paranoia that could carry over and warp their reality. i have heard alot of story's about meth but none of them ever realy matched up to how i actually feel when it comes to doing meth. Meth like other drugs has different effects and different conscequences on people because not everybody has the same personality trates. but lucky for me and alot of those like me i do not have an addictive personality when it comes to meth. i have a problem with alchohol and ciggeretes but not meth. i go on benges. about 2 long benges in my life time once when i was 17 for 2 months off and on it i mean then i didnt do it again until i was 20 and that was for a good 1 and a half months. and now iv'e learned to control it to where i could keep it somewhere safe for weeks at a time than pull it out when i come across a big problem with some one i know and cant find the words to say. or a project that i have been meaning to do but just couldnt find the motivation to do it. all that i said may or may not inspire you if you have been wanting to get off the drug but couldnt do it because you weren't smart enough just playing haha lol.... that is very difficult to do so hey i feel ya struggle bro bro. i mean iv'e tried everything to help myself get through the aches and pains and all the mind games that you gotta overcome when getting off of it after doing it alot. but when it comes to your mind all that shit you felt and thought when you were on it! the only thing real is yourself and you gotta realize that. the world and everthing around you is never gonna change only your thoughts about it can. Now im not a shcollar or a sientist in fact i dont even know how to spell those words but i am strong minded in many different elements of life. what meth can do is enlighten you on thoughts that goes beyond what normal people would think about. glad i got your attention but let me get more in depth into whats up . when i did meth i tried to answer questions about lifes great mysterys i dont know why though its just when i do it makes me feel superior to other people because they dont know what i know. and in the beggining it was cool because i could have in depth conversations with people and i felt good about what i was saying cuss i knew more and could explain myself with the accuracy of a politician. But dope can fuck your mind up because of lack of sleep and nutrients that your mind needs.and lack of that can cause severe paranoia and skitsfrania that lasts longer than the high because you would start believing it just because you think it makes more sense if everythings complicated. examples.... or better yet this is real shit that i have to deal with and hopefully get back to normal. (1.)stress from thoughts that if im not a certain way and confident about it.//// im stressed over nothing! (2.) thoughts that planes flying by are government issued infered spy planes to keep track of you---and at extremes--- they have the ability to shoot you with pin pointed lazers if you share! they think you know too much!. (3.) street lights have cameras and there are also cameras inside your house and everywhere you go!. (4.) satalites from space that hover above the earth and they have billions of cameras that can see through walls and....At Extremes... can even beam radioactive sonar beams ( like how radios receive signals from radio towers ) and those beams bounce off your scull and can transmit the sonar waves in to thoughts and images........OKAY okay all these thoughts are what i call paranoia its funn to think about or even bring up that possibility in a deep conversation you may have with one of your dope buddys but its all bullshit. theres no proof your trippin! your not alone though so dont feel that way.