Speak Up

I recently watched a film "Meth in Montana" and in the documentary, a young woman named Christina said, "The only consistant thing that she found amoungst all users of meth is that it is the devil". I agree. I am a survivor of the tourment and hell meth causes. I believe God is the answer. Devine intervention is the only way out of the hell of meth. Think about it......if meth is evil, then the answer is good; God will and can save you if you ask. Hit your knees and ask God for help. When I final surrendered, I immediately felt hope and felt like I could live a free life when I became willing to listen to God.

If and when you decide to try meth even just once, be ready to give meth everything. Your children. Your job. Your spouse. Your life. I know no other evil like this and it is not to be taken lightly. My love for my son was ripped away and my 18 year marriage to my husband was swollowed up. I couldn't remember the woman I once was and I wanted to die. I could not see the sunrise and no birds were singing. The obession of meth and the horrific life it offers was all that seemed real. I did anything to get meth and i lost all self respect and dignity. I became a toy for men to use and my next breath meant nothing. I was a slave to the evil of meth.

I am so thankful I found this website. I need away to share my experience my strength and my hope to another meth addict. I want to share the love I have found through a God of my understanding. I have come from a place I call meth camp. There, we lived like rats. Everyone of us had one thing in mind...where and how to get more meth. No one cared about anybody. There was no safe water to drink, no bathrooms, people deficated on the ground and the filthy stinch of contaminated water (we had to use it to bathe in) was sickening. I saw mothers give thier children meth as young as 8 years old. I have seen and experienced rape, beatings, terror. I have been shot at, dumped out on highways in the freezing cold and the stiffleing heat. All of my possessions stolen by my "friends" and "boyfriend" I became a thief myself. i was reduced to nothing more than a junkie and I am here to tell anyone struggling, that meth will take you places you did not think exsisted on earth. Hell is right here and waiting for you the minute you use meth.

Now, Life is worth living but I have to fight for it....I remain humble and grateful. I have a faith in a Higher Power. I have hope and I have love. I am grateful to be alive to see my sons smile and be apart of his life. I know that my worst days in the life of meth will be my greatest asset. i just want to say, please don't give up on yourself and ask for help. You can't do it alone and there is so much help out there. There are so many people who have survived.and they are holding out thier hand waiting for you to reach out and g.rab on! I am! and I am willing to help in anyway that I can.

Love and Peace Shannon