Speak Up

I use to tell myself I was not an addict although I did meth everyday and live with an meth addict. I still went to college. My friends all called it maintaining. As long as we did what we need to it was ok that we did meth. It was not. I did not realize how much weight I had lost. I went to the doctor because I thought I was pregnant. I only weighed 98 pounds. I called the guy I was living with to tell him I wasn't pregnant but he didn't answer. I went home to find that in the few hours I was gone he decide he didn't want to be a dad and had another girl who I thought was my friend moved in. It was then that I realized I had to change something. I started trying to quit and I relapsed a few times. I have now been clean for almost six months. My only advice to any one is there is no such thing as just once and you aren't in control when you go days with out eating and freak out.