Speak Up

They used to call me "Blue" 6 plus years ago, and somedays i still go by that nick name. These days it's a different meaning. Now it is just a favorite color to me instead of a way on the streets. As of March 26th I will have 6 years clean from this evil drug we call "Meth"! Now my llife is about being a father and going to college to better myself as a member of society. It's truly amazing how my life has turned around due to the belief in a Higher Power greater than myself and the ability to listen to those who loved me until i was capable of loving and believing in usermyself! I did Meth for almost 13 years, and the last 4 to 5 years of use i was a heavy I.V. user. By the grace of God, and programs like Drug Court, and A.A., and Jail, i was able to (in a manner of speaking) walk away. It was by design that i went through the Meth World! I know that sounds crazy, but if I had to do it over again I wouldn't have changed a single thing! I went through what I went through because I had to. I lost everything several times in my years of drug use, and i do mean everything! I was headed straight for the prison system or worse induced psychosis. Things are different in my life now, and I say that with the utmost pride and passion!! I have full custody of my oldest son and I am going to college for Drafting, and my son is involved in college programs as well. My journey has not been easy by any means, but it hasn't been hard either! I wanted a better life and now I am on a path of awesomeness. Peaceful and serene! I have a great network of supportive people in my life that see the greater good in me that I did not see in myself. Now i believe in me and it feels more than great! It feels spiritually perfect. I went through the entire ringer that Meth had to dish out and I made it through it! And now I feel a solid responsibility to help others and share my story, and maybe, just maybe save another soul from the grip of evil that Meth can put on a person. This is my first Blog, but it will never be my last!!! The feeling of happiness that i get from helping other addicts and talking gives me a drive to do better and better everyday. Now that's a natural high that i can live with and look forward to. There is a life after Meth and Addiction, and it's not just about me! It's about helping others and saving lives and reaching the hand of love out there for someone who feels hopeless and helpless to let them know that it is possible to be forgiven, loved, and to have a great life with a level of normal in it! I didn't give up, and i am so grateful to my higher power everyday that I CHOSE LIFE!!!!!!