Speak Up

Hi, I'm Sandra. I'm a 15 year old girl and am very strong minded on the drug METH. I have lost two beautiful people in my life to it. When I lost them, I decided to start researching the drug, and figuring out exactly what it was. I've read novels, brocheres, websites, watched videos, and everything I could to figure out why this awful thing existed and what it was. I now know the awful impact it has on peope, and the monster it truley is. I was living a pretty average life.. or so I thought. I have two, beautiful and intelligent best friends. One is barley 13, Callie and the other 14, Kelly. We were the best of friends, always having fun. One day, Kelly decided she was going to try meth, but only once. She didn't tell me until after it happened, knowing I would've found a way to stop her. Kelly continued to do it.. claiming she wasn't addicted and didn't crave it.. but we all knew the truth. When Callie found out, she cried.. and cried a lot. Callie was close to losing her mother to the horrible drug, so she could never imagine losing her best friend to it. I told Callie not to worry, I would find a way to help Kelly, I had to. One day, Kelly convinced Callie to try the monster.. now Callie is also doing it as well.

I feel helpless, I am losing two of the most important woman/people in my life to an awful monster and I feel there is nothing I can do about it. I'm losing sleep, every night, trying to think of ways to help my best friends.
I can and will not surround myself by such a negative monster, but my friends need me now, more than ever.

When you decide to partake in the use of meth, you are not only negatively impacting yourself, but your loved ones too. You may not see it now, or understand how it could possibly hurt the ones around you so much, but I know first hand the heart break it causes.

I don't sleep at night, I haven't for days.
I'm eating less.
I'm stressed.
Because I'm losing people I truley love and care about, and theres nothing I can do about it.

I, am helpless.