My mind was the first to go. My meticulous house-cleaning soon turned into spending hours on some meaningless activity like taking apart small appliances and polishing every nut, screw and wire etc., I found inside. I became convinced that every plane and helicopter that passed over the house held D.E.A. agents with infrared cameras, taking pictures of what we were doing inside our home. I thought that a deer blind located in a field across the road from us was being occupied by drug task force agents, and I'd spend hours peeking through a hole I'd cut in my window blinds, waiting to see proof that they were really in there. I did permanent damage to my body that cannot be reversed.